It's 9:30 in the morning and I just pounded a beer.
For the first time in what feels like ages I'm home alone. My Mom is out running an errand, I took Wyatt to school, Dotty to FOB's, Brother is at work as always... and it's just me. Having to see FOB at 9am on Tuesday mornings makes me want to drink. Makes me want to feel less. Makes me angry. Makes me remember. We're also creeping up on a year dump-iverssary of preggo Mallory and lots of feelings are being trudged up. Feelings that make me want to pound a beer at 9:30am at home because it's better than stopping by Shea's for whiskey and shenanigans I can't afford. I want to dance. It's 10:15 in the morning and I just cracked another beer. I feel like acting out. I feel like being irresponsible. I feel like singing. I feel like screaming. I want a brief reprieve from accountability. I want some recklessness. I want loud music and cleavage and lipstick and posture. I want a red dress and dim lights and musk. I want toothy grins and glitter and glamor and sound. It's 11:30 in the morning and I miss my daughter and her little hands gripping the handle of her car seat. It's 11:30 in the morning and I'm grateful for my life as is, un-trapped trying to make happy the unhappy. It's 11:30 in the morning and I need a nap.
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1/16/2019 09:52:23 pm
Life is not always about the most exciting things. Sometimes, the little things matter even most. For me, I always find small gestures as really sweet. Whenever my partner remembers some small details about me, I always get extremely flustered. I cannot help but feel my heart pound with excitement. In my opinion, the little things in life are much more meaningful than even the most extravagant of all activities, I hope that we can all realize this in the soonest.
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Mallory
1/18/2019 10:27:37 am
Little people are sure good at reminding us about little things and what matters. Great point. Thanks for reading!
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